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Had I not lived through a devastating health issue, I never would have believed that feeling happy affects your health. And there’s proof of that: scientific evidence suggests that positive emotions can …

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Staring in the mirror in the bathroom my husband says “Hey hon, what are you staring at?” “My back” I answer. But that’s not the real answer…. the real answer is I can see it.  I can stand in the bathroom, back to the mirror and turn my head far enough to actually see the reflection of my back in the mirror.  My whole back. The realization hits me slowly at first like something coming from a distance and slowly comes into focus as it approaches. I can turn my head. Full range of motion. On day + 6 after transplant I had my only really down day.  It was the night I chased everyone out.  Would not let Rocky stay in the room over night.  I was laying there in bed, tears in my eyes thinking through some “stuff” that was things I could not change from my past,…

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You know you have drebilitating fatigue when: You choose to wear yesterday’s clothes because they passed the sniff test and you can’t possibly add another item to your laundry. If you did that you’d have to carry it, wash it, dry it, and put it away. It’s all too much. Your arms feel disconnected and heavy as if they belong to someone other than yourself and your legs, you’re quite certain, have been glued to the floor. You once loved to read but now the hardback books have become too heavy and paperback books have to be held open. It’s all too much to bear. You find yourself lying in front of the TV, mindlessly changing channels. When you try to read for an extended period of time, your eyelids develop a confounding weight and close when you least expect it. They close like broken garage doors as they slam…

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