Today I write after experiencing that horrific 3 AM voice this morning.
It really had a lot to say to me. Ever wake up, see its the middle of the night and you know, oh hell this is not good!
So here is how it went….
First, thought was about a tough situation at my business. We just finished the busiest week of the year. We produce a 3 day 12 hour event with speakers, messages and information for the food service industry. Specifically about food allergies. That’s my day job and a true passion.
Flying in a close second was like hey…you have not thought about your parents (both are deceased) in a long while. Time to relive the last time I saw each of them for 3:02AM fun. Ouch.
Slamming up the back end of my mind is the wonderful gift of knowing I get to be a grand ma soon for the very first time. Am I doing it all right? Am I showing my daughter how proud I am of her? Can she feel it? Is there anything else I can do? Whats more?
For the final chapter of this mornings 3AM jerk awake was all about what should I be doing different in my life?
Self doubt is not a constant companion but since it was so strong this morning and I have been thinking of re-starting this blog well….Here I am unstoppable, walking through a number of interesting times thinking it might be time to start doing my daily gratitude practice.
Anyone believe that, like me, this can make all the difference in the world? Lets see.